It's been quite a while since I sat down to write about my life the last time and it's been quite a while since I've actually known what I'm doing. Half of 2012 is already over again and I don't want to get caught up in talking about how fast time passes because I'm sure you get that a lot, but I must admit sometimes it takes me by surprise when I look at the date.
The first few months of this year were quite stressful, I worked a lot and at some point realised I finally needed to decide on what to study. A long and nerve-wracking search began, and by the time I'd chosen two unis I wanted to apply to, I still had no idea if they were right for me in any way. But during the following weeks I put everything I had into my applications, I finally took photos again that I was proud of, and all the happiness it brought me within the stress showed me that I was probably doing the right thing. It was a little frustrating to spend so much money on printing photos, buying a portfolio and cardboard, making books, travel expenses and a lot more, seeing as I had no guarantee whatsoever if what I was doing would be successful in the end. In April I quit my job at the bakery to be able to fully concentrate on my artwork, and by the end of May my deadlines were finally over. I soon got a letter that I was invited to a qualification test at my first choice uni, which took place in mid June. I was very nervous and very much convinced that I'd already shown them everything I was able to create in my application, that I wouldn't be able to impress them with anything else. Much to my relief, the test was written and not practical, but still I thought I'd failed completely when I was done six hours later. I had an interview the next day which was a bit better, and the tuesday after I got a letter that I was, after months of waiting and working and doubting myself, indeed accepted. I will now be attending a uni in Stuttgart starting this coming October, studying "Design, Art and Media". (:
These past one and a half months have been relieving and busy at the same time. I'm incredibly thankful that at last, I know where I'm going with my life, that I have something to look forward to. And still, I haven't really been able to enjoy my last free summer at all. Somewhere in the long process of applying to uni I got a new job, and I feel like I've been working non-stop although I know that is not in the slightest true. It's just that I can never really relax, and forget about everything that I have to do. But I guess it's a good exercise for what my life will bring as soon as I'll be studying and not living at home anymore. I'm currently in search of a flat to rent together with my friends Seb and Chrisse, and it's a little draining not to know if we'll find one before my first semester starts.
Exactly three months ago I started going running every other day, and although sometimes I feel incredibly unmotivated, it's been doing me really good that I just pull myself together and always go no matter what. I feel like I've been working really hard on my self-discipline in every aspect in my life, and I'm actually getting my act together slowly but surely.
My
100 days project isn't exactly helping me to be creative right now, but it's a lovely reminder of every day and a good way to document what I've been doing.
I've just spent a week near Hamburg visiting my friends Fenja and Janna, and in a week's time I'm going to Berlin for a few days together with my sister and some of her friends to celebrate her birthday. And then in September I'll spend three weeks in Corsica together with Nina, Julian and Chrisse. Those are my plans for the rest of the summer, and I'll spend the little time I'll be home working and preparing myself for uni.
I wouldn't be able to put my finger on how I've been if somebody asked, but I think it's safe to say that I'm doing my best and maybe even that in the end, I am doing quite good. In case you're interested in knowing more about me on a regular basis, I guess the best way would be to have a look at my
blog every once in a while, for it is the site I update the most.
To those who actually read all of this: Thank you. It makes me happy to know that there are some people who still care about what I'm doing although I haven't been very active on here. But I want you to know that deviantart will always have a special place in my heart, for it first brought out my love for photography five years ago. In fact, it was my anniversary on here just a little over a week ago - the 28th of July. I was attending a photography meetup at Lake Constance that weekend, and caught myself smiling when I realised, while talking to
NikolasBrummer, that it was that day of the year.
I hope all of you are having a good summer so far!
Love, Rona